Every so often I'll be in class and I'll have a moment where I suddenly remember that I love what I'm studying. Sometimes it happens in an English class, and sometimes it happens in an education class. Either way, it's a great way to help fuel me to get work done, and the after effects of it tend to stick around for several weeks afterwards. I feel really inspired to get things done.
I just realized that I haven't had that this semester. This semester has done nothing but leave me feeling burnt out and exhausted. The true irony of that is that this is the first semester where I'm actually in a classroom. However, the only minor moment I had close to this type of thing happened while I was at my practicum, and I was feeling exhausted and all of that before the practicum started. My lack of inspiration or whatever with it isn't about the practicum.
I don't know what it is about this semester. I don't even think it's one thing actually but a combination of things that have all come together this semester to make it feel like it's dragging on forever and ever.
That's not even to say that this semester has been bad. It hasn't been in the grand scheme of things. I don't have anything to complain about really other than a heavier than usual workload, which I think is a big factor in all of this. I'm just tired. I desperately feel like I need a break, and summer break being in a few weeks might actually be making it worse instead of better.
As I've mentioned before though, I start getting my huge papers and projects out of the way this week, and I'm crossing my fingers that things immediately start letting up after that. I'm not sure that I'll ever be as grateful for summer break as I will be this year. I'm not sure what next year will be like, but just the fact that I'll have less credit hours next semester has me hoping it won't be like this.